Yesterday was a struggle and a success all in one. Does that sound familiar? I know I am not the only one in the world who lives a life that has extreme ups and downs and then days in the middle where it is a success to just make it through the day. In a world of likes, followers, and subscribers it is no wonder that most people only present the good to the world. The good is what people want to see to make them feel a little better about having sucky job, being lonely, being in a loveless marriage, that disrespectful bitch that tried your gangster, the bills that are piling up and you have no idea how to pay them. I get it. We think that some people have it so easy, but the truth is that we all go through things. We all have aspects of our life that we absolutely hate. At the same time, we all have things about us that we absolutely love. Yesterday, I had a moment. By moment, I mean I said Fuck the world I give up. Again I know I am not the only person in he world who has ever reached a breaking point. Luckily, I have love in my life. My boyfriend actually asked me a real question. He asked me….” Trevis, what do you love about yourself?” In that moment I had to get out of my head and actually tell him what I love about myself.
That’s not a question you get asked everyday. For a second it shocked me. That should be a question that you should be able to answer relatively easy. We know ourselves. We think we know who we are. But it took me a few seconds because all I could think in the moment was that I was a failure. I sucked. Now that I am rational, even writing this is hard because in that moment I was a person that I don’t know. No, I know that person. You, the person reading this, you know that person too. That’s the person who has tried their hardest but things just didn’t work out how they hoped. Finally, I verbalized what I love about myself. I love how much of a friend I am. I love the relationships that I have built. I am a person who puts those who I love over everything. I am compassionate and I know that those closest to me see it and appreciate it. I love my love for animals especially puppies. A puppy could melt my entire heart with one glance. Even in that moment my dog knew I was upset and he just put his head on my chest. He is a dog so he can’t talk but if he could, he was telling me that he was there for me. I appreciate that connection I have with animals. I love the fact that I am, in most moments, a person that can always see that the glass is half full and not half empty. I love the fact that I am an artist with every ounce of my being. I am an artist and I create beauty. Then I realized that the true beauty was all the things that I love about myself, because I am an incredible work of art. One of a kind, beautiful in every way, I am Trevis Brown.
So that was my struggle yesterday. I am human, I am not always glamorous. At times I can be sad, I can be stubborn, I can even be a bitch, but I also love hard. I guess that’s the beauty of life. Humans get to feel a roller coaster of emotions both good and bad. I would love to hear what you do to remind yourself how amazing you are when you are down in the comments below. If you are reading this and feeling down, I also want you to know that you are not alone. This feeling is just a moment in the long wonderful life you will have. Stop for one second and breath and then ask yourself, "what do you love about yourself?” As soon as you start saying reasons, I promise you will see your beauty and feel better.
I am Trevis Brown, and I have always been fascinated with beauty, style, fashion, art, and culture. I became a makeup artist over a decade ago and since then I have worked for some of the biggest cosmetic brands in the world. I have done weddings, music videos, worked with amazing designers, models, and photographers. I have also had the pleasure of working with everyday woman who just want to feel “beautiful”. Follow me on my journey let’s discover the beauty this world possess together.
- Trevis Brown